The study week is over. The second week in Sweden has almost passed. And the feeling still stays. The weird feeling of this willingness to stay here mixing with the longing for home. I guess I’m afraid of both – of staying here till the end, which could result in my alienation from home – and of longing for home, which would hinder me from experiencing everything I have before me here.
This is what I mean: I think that if I let myself get used to this place too much (I don’t know where the border lies), I might as well not want to come back home! But since I have to come back to Latvia, it would be all the more difficult when I’m actually back. If, on the other hand, I try to keep a distance in my relationship with this land – if I try to not get attached to it too much by remembering my homeland every moment and every day of my stay here in Sweden, I might as well not want to be here at all!, because I would miss out on things I would be enjoying here otherwise.Past week was regular. Except for several things. One was that a reminder on my telephone went off during the big morning meeting during our rector’s request to not use cell phones in the school premises (classrooms and canteen). Everyone laughed, I looked like a ripen tomato. Talk about coincidences!
Another thing was that on Thursday we had guest lecture type of thing, given by a former police lady who talked about alcohol and drugs – how to use the former and grow the latter 😉 (or was I too drunk or stoned to remember what she was talking about?) 😛
My sister who lives in Sweden has sent me the tickets so I’ll visit her next weekend. I’m excited to finally get to see her. But tonight (late on January 20) I read that because of the heavy snowfall many trains and planes in Sweden and Denmark were cancelled. So whether or not I will travel down to the south of Sweden at the end of the next week is kind of unclear.